Momma im comin home

ok, a brief synopsis of the shit I am going through.

* I think my kids are getting on every ones nerves, and mine as well.

* I hate having to use other peoples washing machines to wash my clothes.

* I have ate out every damn day I have been here...I have offered to cook, but no one takes me up on it, ok, most have ate my cooking so maybe they are trying to tell me something

* My lesbian friend is not coming to the concert with me...She cant get off work because her boss, which is her lesbian she/man, wont let her have the day off, because holy shit, we may make out...WTF?...I have no lesbian tendency in my body, and its getting damn old....I can not take it anymore...she always backs out of shit because she/man wont let her go anywhere with me..

has she seen me? I mean for Gods sake, I have big boobs, a rotten attitude, longish hair, I am normally primped pretty good, I like wearing lipgloss, I like men...oh yea, I DONT WANT TO MAKE OUT WITH ANY GIRLS..in fact, I would glady punch any female in the face that would try to kiss me..

Even if I was a lesbian I am so not my friends type...she likes ones who look like men for some odd reason..

So now I have no one to go with. I have this hotel room booked, its very pricey, I had the whole evening planned out, when my mother and I were going..

Now I have no idea what I am going to do, I do not want to go alone, and I wont..

I just want to pack up my shit, and go home.

This has been a very bad trip. Nothing has worked out.

I feel like I am annoying everyone, yet I have no where else to stay.I go between my dads and my grandmas, but I just don't want to burden granny right now...So I don't stay there much.

I have hung out with some friends on and off during my stay...So that has been nice.

BUT, I am getting bored. I am getting worn out. And these kids are close to being left on a camp ground somewhere far away from here...

for my own sanity.

I am not dealing well...

I need some sort of a vacation...

I hate depending on others...

HELP ME.