shit...on a stick

Ok, I am in a mood right now and I am only writing this to get it off my chest and to show you what I deal with.

Remember my meeting? Well it went just as I feared.

Here is the back story...bare with me and I am sorry if this runs long, by NO means do I expect any of you to read the whole thing, nor expect u to care...I am doing this just for my own mental health.

Ok...back years ago I did a silly thing and went to college. One of my majors dealt with the Mentally Ill..yes fitting I know...My actual degree would be in Medical Microbiology..shocking yes, I am smart...go figure..

Yes that really has nothing to do with Mentally Ill, I know this..BUT I had a few courses in which prepared me for such things...I had lots of recommendations and was actually approached about the job, I did not actually apply myself..

Anyway, I took the job because I love this shit. Crazy people hold a dear place in my heart, as most of my family qualifies as such. I took this job at a time in my life where I had another part time gig in which things were starting to happen for me...Things that could take me to places way beyond The Crazy House as well as Minnesota.

As it turns out, I WAS born with a conscience and could not deal with the shit they wanted from me. ...and its not even relevant nor important anymore.

So as I was starting to drift away from this other gig and dealing with the jail, I was starting to take a more active roll in the Crazy House. I was actually enjoying it so much that I would prefer working there over the county slammer.

I felt like I was making a difference, and I truly love the crazy people in my house.

Well in November they pulled us all aside and told us were they stripping all our benefits, which included..

*sick pay
*holiday pay..even if u did not work that day, u got paid anyway
*two weeks paid vacation a year
*a very nice wage with yearly raises and possible advancement
*health insurance...(for those who wanted/needed it, which I id not as Mr Shaky deals with that)

So when they did this, they told us that by Feb we would all have a substantial raise in our wage to compensate for our losses..

Well Feb came and went, and we would go to our house manager and ask WTF is up with out raises..She is the greatest manager, she told us that she really did not know and all they were telling her was they were working on it.

Well after months and months of waiting, we as employees ,wrote the owner of the company a letter asking where our raise was.

it was ignored.

So just before Memorial Day, we wrote up another one stating facts and told them we felt we have been lied to and we want some answers now.

Well, turns out we are being punished for this..

In fact, our house mangers bosses told us that everyone who signed this letter should be fired on the spot..

As a matter of fact, they demoted our manger over this..she is no longer my boss/manager anymore. The woman still has to show up, as she is screwed. She is a single mom to three kids and supporting them and herself. Not like she can just up and leave, and if the fire her, that means they have to pay out unemployment. So they are just going to make her life hell until she backs down and leaves on her own

So she shows up, BIG pay cut and with no title anymore.

Because we spoke our minds...

Now me, being the big mouth I am, went to bat for her today. Told the Big Supervisors this was not only wrong, but illegal as according to the Grievance policy in our own damn handbook, you can not demote or fire anyone for speaking their minds. We followed the companies grievance policy to the letter..

So we are all on pins and needles..Most of the people working here have no choice but to work until they find other employment. What they basically said to us today was, i want to fire each and everyone of u, but if we did that, there would be no one to work..

We are treated like insignificant peons, and actually the head boss lady told us that is all we were in her eyes...

You do not know how badly I wanted to get up and walk out...I spoke my mind, told them this was bull shit..along with a few other staff, most were fucking cowards and said nothing..

I could quit. I truly do not need the money. I work there because number one, I have grown so attached to the four crazy people in our house, that it would break my heart to leave them.

Secondly, I do enjoy the money..It is what I use to get tattoos, piercing, plane trips, vacations, liquor and man whores.

We pay no bills with my income, it is just an extra nice cushion, and fun money.

I am so torn as to what to do. I want to tell them to go fuck themselves.. And I know they were hoping I would....They know I can afford not to work..and if they got rid of me, they would have only one or two employees who have spines to stand up to them.

I am waiting..

waiting for them to can us all.

...I will glady sit home and collect money from these asshats while I go to the park with my kids, get drunk, or hell make prank phone calls to people.

I feel so sick inside that they did this to our manager. She actually is a good friend along with 3 other girls..we are like a big family, we have each others backs on everything..

There was lots of crying today, lots of swearing, and lots of voodoo dolls being made as we speak.

In my life I never thought I would ever have a job be threatened simply because we are asking where our raise is after we were promised this after they screwed us up our assholes with no lube and no warning...U cant take benefits away and then promise shit and do not deliver and expect us to just lay down and take your raping..It is not going to happen.

So I am not sure what I will do now. I feel so betrayed and I feel as though I can not trust the people who are suppose to have our backs.

Over the past 5 months or so, I have taken a full time position there...its 72 hours a pay period..I quit the jail as I wanted to be able to not worry about conflicting schedules and such..Plus, the jail was nice, BUT it was a very hostile envoirment. Not employees, but when your dealing with criminals, it is a very shaky ground to tread. I loved it...don't get me wrong, but the Crazy House took priority over it after a while.

I don't regret my decision on quitting the jail, but I do regret giving my all to a job where they shit all over us.

In my life I never thought that I would get treated like this at THIS type of job. Now I did get treated this way in a job before...And now to this day, I can be sued if I say anything about it/them..which in turn there is already something brewing in the court sytem. La de da..bastards.

Now this crazy house job is threatening to take us all to court over this whole thing, if we put up any more stink..

Little do they know..we have already called an attorney, because what they are doing/did is not only illegal, but also going against their own grievance policy and procedure.

We have a good case, or so we have been told. We are not backing down. I will see this thing thru till the end. And I am assuming the end will be them calling me and firing me.

So be it.

So, what would you do?

If you have even made it this far down in the post...I will personally send u a hallmark card.

I am not flopping, but I sure am flipping out..sonofabitch.