I am tired, I am drained,and I am hungry

Well the plans have changed yet again. I guess the military social service is getting involved. They are paying her a visit on Monday and they need the kids to be there. If things are not up to par then I will be getting the kids.

The last few weeks, or months for that matter have been emotionally draining on me. I normally am not one to be depressed or down in the dumps...But since late summer I have been in a funk and can not get out of it....

I am relieved that social services is involved, because right now I feel like an army of one. They have my number and will call me if they feel the need for removal of the kids.

Please keep a good thought for these kids....I will let you know what happens after this...

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My mother and I went shopping last night. We were going to hit Applebees and get some drinks and have a very fattening dinner after the day of hell we had....

I pull into the parking lot and the place is full...No parking spots..Not one..

We decide to try a new place..It was called Emma's Buffet....You know how I feel about buffets, but I was just wanting to eat something...

So, we get inside, pay over 20 bucks....And all the food is crusty looking and cold...

I grab some potatoes and broccoli, some cottage cheese....

I nearly puked in my mouth, the food was tasteless and cold....My mom says " I am going to get the manager"....I wanted to hide under the table.....I am just not up to scenes lately...Normally I would be the one to cause a ruckus.....

I can hear my mother telling him how the food was cold and whatnot..I then hear the manager tell her " we do not serve cold food, it is normal for your food to cool down by the time you get to the table...And if you want hot food, you need to get the food from the bottom"

I am thinking, your kidding me right....This man just did not tell my mother to get the food from the bottom.

Then I hear her say " so my choice is cold food or burned dried out crusty food?....How nice"

Someone please come put Christina out of her ever lovin misery......

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I am sorry for being so down.....I am just not feeling myself lately...I think the winter and no sunshine, coupled with worries about money and my normal everyday worry about the kids..Are taking a toll on me. And today did not help...One minute I was leaving for a 24 hour drive..Next minute I was not....

I am only one person and I can not save or change the world no matter how much I would love too....Right now I think I need to try and get myself together. I think this is God's way of telling me to simma down now.....I am here if those kids need somewhere to go....And I know I will get a call should something go down....

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Right now I need to fix myself, and I don't know how I thought I could go all the way to Virginia and grab her kids when right now I can barely hold myself together....

I need a vacation, some hard liquor and a Poison CD.....

Toodles