Not again

Baby spawn seemed fine all day yesterday, she even slept all night the night before. Then just before bedtime she starts acting weird. She appears to be scared over some things. She gets kinda clingy. Then when I put her to bed she cries for damn near an hour. She finally goes to sleep.

Then at 2 am guess who is up? She would not go back to sleep. I bring her up to our bed where she proceeds to tell me " no, momma, no night night"

Why wont you go night night!!!!!!!! I am going crazy here!!! Cant you see that?

Before bed and while she was in bed she would say " owe"....So I would ask her what was wrong. " juice momma" well I told her you do not get juice in bed...But she contuined with her "owe" for a long time....

Now is this kid really in pain, or is it a desperate attempt to get more attention?

Did she wake up in the night because she was scared or in pain or because she had crap in her diaper?.....

Being a parent is the most gut wretching job of all. Its like you totally lose yourself. You constantly worry about your spawns. Your heart aches and you feel an empty feeling in your chest if you think something is wrong with them. You no longer think for yourself. Your spawns consume your every waking thought.

The moment you think they are ill, all hell breaks loose. What was a good day, has all of a sudden become one of the worst. And at least if your spawns are older and can verbalize what they are feeling you no if its an emergency situation or not . When your dealing with a 2 year old whose favortie word are " Dora, oots (boots), juice, night night, no, and owe" you kind of are clueless as to what their potential aliment is. Maybe they are not feeling good, or maybe they are just pissed off about something. How the hell are we suppose to know?

Now my gut is telling me she is not having night terrors. But what is it? I don't know. Maybe she is going thro some phase of sorts. Maybe she is in pain somewhere.

Why don't toddlers and babies come with a freaking manual? I swear my ticker cant take it anymore.

I am taking her to the doctor again today, and I am going to demand something be done. They are either going to do some bloodwork, or a full damn body scan!!! Or give me a new modle that sleeps and does not complain about being in pain every 20 minutes. Got it doc?!!

If I knew having spawns was going to take a toll on my ticker, and make me feel like this, I may have got a dog first.

I will update you as it warrants...Have a good weekend

Toodles