Never Tear us Apart

So, this here will be your last post of the week....

I like to keep u guys in the know...so, now u know.

So, I showed you my grand babies eggs last post. I am sorry to report that my eggs are missing. Something took my eggs. My eggs are no more. My nest is empty.

I definitely have an empty nest...

When I catch the predator who took my babies, I'm gonna choke em.


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I have a couple things in common with my dad which would be

my grandma's nose

classic rock

emotionally distant



we hate talking on the phone.

we also share the same sort of humor that no one finds funny or amusing but us..

I can pretty much safely say I have not heard my dads voice since I was there in Dec.

Oh wait, I just remember I did talk to him when I was in Grand Rapids for my um..def leppard concert...fuck a duck

See, I do not call him because, well....I hate talking. I hate talking to people when I see them, I hate talking to people on the phone, I just hate talking.

My dad is the same, except I think he likes talking to people outside a phone line.

On my birthday, holidays he sends an email. If that damn Al Gore had not invited the internet...choke choke.....I would virtually not be sure if he was still alive.

I fear I am going to turn this way when my kids grow up. I mean they get on my every last nerve right now, and I look forward to the day when I don't have to tell Boo to leave the cat alone, or tell The Boy he does not have a mustcahe, or tell Blondie her bra is on backwards...

I look forward to the day I don't have to talk to them at all..unless I want to.

But I wonder, will I want to?

The minute those tots walk or run out the door, will I want to talk to them on a daily basis still? Or will I just like to have my peace and quite?

I think the quite would get too quite after a while. Wouldn't it?

Then when my kids have kids am I gonna be an overactive grandmother and spoil them like my mother does, or not send them shit but worthless savings bonds like the father in law does?

Will I just call once a week to talk to them like the mother in law, or just send them cards and gifts for birthdays like my dad does..with no call...cause we don't call?

I think about these things.

I mean, does everyone? Or am I the only loser?

Just wondering...cause I think about these things.......

Or my kids could just get up and leave and not tell me where they are going...no forwarding address or number....

Which would not surprise me none...cause ya no....That's how they might roll...


Then there is another issue I'm dealing with. The Hubs brother wants to take The Boy and Blondie for two weeks in the summer. And this is troubling me.

I do not want my kids in another state without me. Cause I am a bad mom that way. I mean what mom lets their young spawns out of state without them unless your selling them?

I just don't think its cool.

And to top it off, the hubs thinks they should go.

so this is causing fights.

I say if they want to see the kids so badly, they can come HERE for a visit and see them. Why should I send them there?

Sure most days I would like them to go far far away in a hot air balloon and just hover in the sky...not too far where I cant see them, but far enough to where I don't hear their voices.

They could hover in the backyard, in a balloon, and I will let them down for meals and showers..unless it rains, then the shower is covered...and no need to come down till the next meal time...

But most of all, I need to have them under my nose at all times because well, they are the only tots I have, and there isn't anyone I trust to take care of them but me.

Especially out of state...

So am I being totally unreasonable?

Doesn't matter what u say, because well...

they aren't going.